Words are a powerful thing
They say something is only
As powerful as you let it be
But everyone has felt the sting
Of nasty words, comments, and insults.
No one wishes that upon themselves.
Yet we never hesitate to spit daggers
Into someone else's already damaged heart.
As if our own suffering
Wasn't enough to make us finally see.
On the North side of the city
Tears leaked out of Eric's
Cold, tired eyes.
Tears that he had worked
So hard to keep held in
Now betrayed him as they
left streaks down his face.
Every day his father scolded him,
slapped him with words
that were never carefully thought out.
Words that were formed
In the heat of the moment
Were causing a world of pain
In a young man's soul.
Why can't you be more like your brother?
Why haven't you cleaned up your mess?
How come you only made a B on this test?
Can you not slouch for once?
Hit after hit
rolled out of his father's mouth
Unaware of the sharp edge
he gave the words.
He didn't know how hard Eric worked,
Day after day,
only to hear
that his best wasn't good enough.
But when his father would set him down,
on the worn couch in the den
And turn to Eric
Red stained test paper in hand
The words that made Eric wince
Flowed from his father's dry lips,
"I'm very disappointed in you."
On the South side of the city
A beautiful girl named Hannah
Wears herself down
With a busy schedule
Her mother has formed for her.
Never time for rest,
always go, go, go.
Placed in dance lessons,
piano lessons, beauty pageants,
and modeling auditions
Without ever consulting Hannah
about her actual desires.
None of the hectic activities
she was in,
were what she really wanted to be doing.
Her real dream was drifting away.
Vivid colors of hope
Were replaced with the dull grays
Of hopelessness and fatigue.
Never would she be able to pursue
being a doctor.
For where was there room
for Miss America in the operating room?
She was missing the support
From whom should have been
Her biggest fan.
Her mom.
When she came off the runway
Only a runner-up ribbon in her hand,
Or was late
Because she lost track of time
While researching her dream job
Her mother's eyes would dance
With anger, resentment, and disappointment.
And all too well
Hannah knew what was coming next.
"I'm very disappointed in you."
As people suffer in silence
All over the world,
As false words seep into their skin
Filling their lifeless veins
And poisoned minds,
Hopeful eyes grow dim
With the crushing weight
Of the pressure to be perfect.
Some say that
Sticks and stones
may break my bones
but words will never hurt me.
But talk to someone
Who's heart has shattered
Because of careless words
thrown their way
And they will tell you
a different story:
Sticks and stones
may break my bones
but words
will completely
destroy me.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, December 15, 2008
SNOW DAY!
Monday, December 8, 2008
Heroes
I just want to dedicate this song to all of my heroes.
All these heroes come and go
But you're still standing
All these heroes come and go
But you're still standing
Monday, November 24, 2008
Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly)
Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly)
By Sanctus Real
It's time for healing, time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything, I surrender...to...
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly
It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
I really don't know what else to add to this song. It says everything so perfectly. I know my life has seemed like completle chaos before. I mean, let's face it. At the time everything seemed completly hopeless. But the beautiful thing, the thing I always need to remember, is that God is at work even in those desolate times. We can only see how things look on the surface, but God can see below the surface. He knows the bigger picture and what is going to come out of those hard times. The song says it well: It's hard to surrender to what I can't see. I know I find it hard to surrender to what I can't see. But when I do what the next line says: But I'm giving in to something heavenly, then I'll really be able to experience peace in the chaos and see the miracle of the moment.
There's only One who knows
What's really out there waiting
In all the moments yet to be
And all we need to know
Is He's out there waiting
To Him the future's history
So breathe it in and breathe it out
Listen to your heartbeat
There's a wonder in the here and now
It's right there in front of you
And I don't want you to miss
the miracle of the moment
God, please help me to surrender it all to You. Help me to remember that You are always in control no matter what and that You've got a bigger plan than I can imagine. I love you. Amen.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Opportunity Knocks
Today I witnessed another one of God's reminders. It was one of those moments where it hit you smack between the eyes. It's amazing how the smallest things can tell so much.
Today the school started locking all of the outside doors. At lunch, you can go just outside the doors to some soda machines to get a drink. Well, two girls went out to get sodas. One girl actually went to the machines and another stood and held the door open so they wouldn't get locked out. Now I'm not sure if she kicked the door or it slipped or what but it ended up closing on her locking her and her friend out. What happened then? People started laughing. They thought that, that girl's mistake of letting the door close was hilarious and needless to say no one was exactly jumping up to open the door for them. Now on the far side of that same wall the door is on, is where they sell Domino's pizza everyday. Now some kids from Project Life, which involves the special ed. kids, take turns every day serving the pizza. Well the young gentleman today serving pizza left his spot at the pizza table, crossed the cafeteria, and opened the door for the girls when no one else would. Isn't that just awesome?? He didn't think twice about it, he didn't care what anyone else said about him, he just got up and did it. It was such a good reminder for me of how my reaction to those situations to be.
Now, put yourself into that situation. What would your response be? Since I was in the situation I can already see what I've done. And I'll admit I'm not exactly proud of my response. I simply sat there I watched. Even worse, the thought to go open the door myself never even crossed my mind. How awful is that?? It took someone else finally stepping up to the plate and opening the door for me to even think about that! I've thought about what I was thinking at that moment, and I've realized this. It didn't cross my mind because I thought it wasn't my job, or my duty. I wasn't sitting close to the door so I figured the ball didn't land in my court. I mean, there were plenty of people close to the door capable of opening it, right? They could do it. But yet, there's my problem. I tried to put the job, the responsibility, the blame on someone else's shoulders. I figured I was "in the clear." Where I was sitting didn't matter though. I very easily could have gotten up from my chair and opened that door. But instead, I decided to let someone else do it, and just like Pilate from Bryan's story a couple of weeks ago, I washed my hands of the entire thing. I always have an opportunity. Every day there are plenty of opportunities for me to step out of my comfort zone and help someone else. But yet, how many times do I actually take those opportunities??
Being a disciple of Christ isn't just about thinking about doing the right thing or saying the right thing, its about DOING the right thing and actually living out what God has commanded us. I know I haven't exactly being living up to that lately. So, I pray tonight that God would help me show love through my actions. Like Bryan said during the Disciple series: "It won't necessarily be easy, but it will be worth it."
Today the school started locking all of the outside doors. At lunch, you can go just outside the doors to some soda machines to get a drink. Well, two girls went out to get sodas. One girl actually went to the machines and another stood and held the door open so they wouldn't get locked out. Now I'm not sure if she kicked the door or it slipped or what but it ended up closing on her locking her and her friend out. What happened then? People started laughing. They thought that, that girl's mistake of letting the door close was hilarious and needless to say no one was exactly jumping up to open the door for them. Now on the far side of that same wall the door is on, is where they sell Domino's pizza everyday. Now some kids from Project Life, which involves the special ed. kids, take turns every day serving the pizza. Well the young gentleman today serving pizza left his spot at the pizza table, crossed the cafeteria, and opened the door for the girls when no one else would. Isn't that just awesome?? He didn't think twice about it, he didn't care what anyone else said about him, he just got up and did it. It was such a good reminder for me of how my reaction to those situations to be.
Now, put yourself into that situation. What would your response be? Since I was in the situation I can already see what I've done. And I'll admit I'm not exactly proud of my response. I simply sat there I watched. Even worse, the thought to go open the door myself never even crossed my mind. How awful is that?? It took someone else finally stepping up to the plate and opening the door for me to even think about that! I've thought about what I was thinking at that moment, and I've realized this. It didn't cross my mind because I thought it wasn't my job, or my duty. I wasn't sitting close to the door so I figured the ball didn't land in my court. I mean, there were plenty of people close to the door capable of opening it, right? They could do it. But yet, there's my problem. I tried to put the job, the responsibility, the blame on someone else's shoulders. I figured I was "in the clear." Where I was sitting didn't matter though. I very easily could have gotten up from my chair and opened that door. But instead, I decided to let someone else do it, and just like Pilate from Bryan's story a couple of weeks ago, I washed my hands of the entire thing. I always have an opportunity. Every day there are plenty of opportunities for me to step out of my comfort zone and help someone else. But yet, how many times do I actually take those opportunities??
Being a disciple of Christ isn't just about thinking about doing the right thing or saying the right thing, its about DOING the right thing and actually living out what God has commanded us. I know I haven't exactly being living up to that lately. So, I pray tonight that God would help me show love through my actions. Like Bryan said during the Disciple series: "It won't necessarily be easy, but it will be worth it."
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Stand Up, Speak Out
Alright..so here is a very short, very quick story I wrote a couple of months ago. I'm still not completely sure how I like it. So, let me know your thoughts and/or suggestions on it! Thanks and enjoy!
Stand Up, Speak Out
Her body shook, her voice trembled, and her stomach was in knots. Word after word spilled out of her mouth. Each word dripped with honesty and sincerity. Every sentence was directly from her heart. The room felt like it was spinning but she stood her ground. Frustration climbed up her throat and choked her words. Hot tears rolled down her cheeks. She had come too far and too long to give in now. Determination squelched the frustration and she pressed on. The people that sat in front of her listened and watched her intently. She noticed as their faces contorted into many different stares. Each facial expression matched the emotion that was carried in the different parts of her story. In the corner two teenage boys snickered and made faces. She ignored them. She was halfway home now.
Just moments before she had been backstage almost regretting her decision. Speaking in front of people was not a strong suit for her. But for the purposes of competing in the contest she had to do it. She had entered her local creative writing contest and she was one of the finalists. That meant she had to read it in front of a crowd. No exceptions. Which brought her back to that moment on stage.
As she read the last sentence she noticed tears on the faces of the others. She let the last word dance on her tongue before vocalizing it, adding a bit of a dramatic effect. Her arms fell to her sides signaling she was done. The room was still. Not a single person moved. Worry began to creep up through her bones. Maybe reading her story was a mistake. As she was about to move off the stage the crowd jumped to their feet as if zapped by an electric shock. They all started in a thunderous applause. She could feel the vibrations through the small wooden stage. Pride welled up in her. For a deaf girl who had never heard herself speak before she had done a great job. The story that ended up winning the contest? Her very own life story.
Stand Up, Speak Out
Her body shook, her voice trembled, and her stomach was in knots. Word after word spilled out of her mouth. Each word dripped with honesty and sincerity. Every sentence was directly from her heart. The room felt like it was spinning but she stood her ground. Frustration climbed up her throat and choked her words. Hot tears rolled down her cheeks. She had come too far and too long to give in now. Determination squelched the frustration and she pressed on. The people that sat in front of her listened and watched her intently. She noticed as their faces contorted into many different stares. Each facial expression matched the emotion that was carried in the different parts of her story. In the corner two teenage boys snickered and made faces. She ignored them. She was halfway home now.
Just moments before she had been backstage almost regretting her decision. Speaking in front of people was not a strong suit for her. But for the purposes of competing in the contest she had to do it. She had entered her local creative writing contest and she was one of the finalists. That meant she had to read it in front of a crowd. No exceptions. Which brought her back to that moment on stage.
As she read the last sentence she noticed tears on the faces of the others. She let the last word dance on her tongue before vocalizing it, adding a bit of a dramatic effect. Her arms fell to her sides signaling she was done. The room was still. Not a single person moved. Worry began to creep up through her bones. Maybe reading her story was a mistake. As she was about to move off the stage the crowd jumped to their feet as if zapped by an electric shock. They all started in a thunderous applause. She could feel the vibrations through the small wooden stage. Pride welled up in her. For a deaf girl who had never heard herself speak before she had done a great job. The story that ended up winning the contest? Her very own life story.
Filling in the Gap
Alright so I know my blogging has been severely lacking lately. I'm so sorry about that. Truth is..I have had absolutely no idea what to write about. Honestly I still don't, but hopefully I'll have a blog up soon! Thanks for all of your patience!
Friday, September 12, 2008
I've been tagged!
I've been tagged and given an award!! Thanks Mackenzie!!
So, what I have to do is answer the following questions with 1-word answers then tag and pass along the award to 7 people!
Alright! Here we go!
1. Where is your cell phone? Table
2. Where is your significant other? None
3. Your hair color? Brown
4. Your mother? Awesome
2. Where is your significant other? None
3. Your hair color? Brown
4. Your mother? Awesome
5. Your father? Silly (But I love you!!)
6. Your favorite thing? Family
7. Your dream last night? Sweet
8. Your dream/goal? Marry
9. The room you're in? Dining-Room
10. Your hobby? Writing
9. The room you're in? Dining-Room
10. Your hobby? Writing
11. Your fear? FEAR
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? College
13. Where were you last night? Wal-Mart
14. What you're not? Decisive
14. What you're not? Decisive
15. One of your wish-list items? Laptop
16. Where you grew up? Missouri
17. The last thing you did? Danced :-p
16. Where you grew up? Missouri
17. The last thing you did? Danced :-p
18. What are you wearing? Clothes
19. Your TV? On
20. Your pet(s)? None
19. Your TV? On
20. Your pet(s)? None
21. Your computer? Toshiba
22. Your mood? Pleasant
23. Missing someone? Yes
22. Your mood? Pleasant
23. Missing someone? Yes
24. Your car? Mini-van
25. Something you're not wearing? Socks
25. Something you're not wearing? Socks
26. Favorite store? Target
27. Your summer? Fun
27. Your summer? Fun
28. Love someone? Yes
29. Your favorite color? Purple
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Dunno
29. Your favorite color? Purple
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Dunno
Okay, so I tag:
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Be Fearless
This weekend's message at MH was PHENOMENAL! It was really really great! It really had me thinking this week.
FEAR.
What a harsh four-letter word.
FEAR.
The word itself seems to haunt me. I know that I have too often let fear control my life. Its almost as if its become who I am. A fearful, worrying, anxious person. I hate that the word fear and my name could almost be synonymous. This weekend's message really seemed to kick me and say, STOP BEING SO FEARFUL! BE FEARLESS! GET OUT THERE AND DO WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO!
Here are some points that really jumped out at me:
-God sees in you what you can't see in yourself.
-The Gideon: When God uses an unsure, insecure, and fearful person to do the impossible.
-When you believe God is with you the deal is done.
-You don't have to lay awake at night tossing and turning. Replaying a situation over and over again in your mind; thinking I should have said this, I should have done that, I shouldn't have done this or that.
-Many people are paralyzed by fear.
-Its time to send fear packing.
-Rub fear against faith and let faith conquer fear once and for all!
-If God is for you, who can be against you? (My favorite!)
Those points are so powerful, so true. Another thing Bryan mentioned is that the only reason we become afraid is because we don't really truly believe God is with us. And sadly, I know exactly what he's talking about. The moment I go into a situation thinking, "I'm on my own....I'm all by myself..." then I've created a roadblock for myself. I am NOT alone. GOD IS WITH ME. What else do I need?? GOD IS WITH ME!!!
That's such an exciting thing to know, isn't it? The creator of the universe is WITH ME! He's with YOU! He's with us all!! We never have to be alone!!!
Now, I will leave you with this question that Bryan used in his message;
WHAT IS GOD TELLING YOU TO DO THAT FEAR HAS KEPT YOU FROM DOING?
FEAR.
What a harsh four-letter word.
FEAR.
The word itself seems to haunt me. I know that I have too often let fear control my life. Its almost as if its become who I am. A fearful, worrying, anxious person. I hate that the word fear and my name could almost be synonymous. This weekend's message really seemed to kick me and say, STOP BEING SO FEARFUL! BE FEARLESS! GET OUT THERE AND DO WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO DO!
Here are some points that really jumped out at me:
-God sees in you what you can't see in yourself.
-The Gideon: When God uses an unsure, insecure, and fearful person to do the impossible.
-When you believe God is with you the deal is done.
-You don't have to lay awake at night tossing and turning. Replaying a situation over and over again in your mind; thinking I should have said this, I should have done that, I shouldn't have done this or that.
-Many people are paralyzed by fear.
-Its time to send fear packing.
-Rub fear against faith and let faith conquer fear once and for all!
-If God is for you, who can be against you? (My favorite!)
Those points are so powerful, so true. Another thing Bryan mentioned is that the only reason we become afraid is because we don't really truly believe God is with us. And sadly, I know exactly what he's talking about. The moment I go into a situation thinking, "I'm on my own....I'm all by myself..." then I've created a roadblock for myself. I am NOT alone. GOD IS WITH ME. What else do I need?? GOD IS WITH ME!!!
That's such an exciting thing to know, isn't it? The creator of the universe is WITH ME! He's with YOU! He's with us all!! We never have to be alone!!!
Now, I will leave you with this question that Bryan used in his message;
WHAT IS GOD TELLING YOU TO DO THAT FEAR HAS KEPT YOU FROM DOING?
Sunday, August 31, 2008
The Journey of Life
So, today as I was looking through old saved files on my computer I came across this. Its been a long time since I've written this but, I figured I'd share it.
LIFE
Tumbling, falling
Flying, soaring,
Crashing, burning,
Shining, glowing,
Learning, teaching,
Finding, growing
Breaking, hurting,
Playing, laughing,
Gaining, losing,
Incredible heights, terrifying lows, thrilling speeds, crazy loops, enjoyment and fear
This is no roller coaster:
IT’S LIFE
There are no pit stops, no way to get off early, and no guarantees of a safe, comfortable journey.
God is willing to go on the ride with you, so no matter where you are on the ride you’ve go someone there with you, someone who will help you through those ups and down. So, are you riding alone, or with God??
Friday, August 29, 2008
Don't Delay
So, back two weeks ago, on my first day of school, my government teacher had the following quote on his board: "You may delay, but time will not." ~ Benjamin Franklin
He of course asked us what we thought it meant. At the time I had thoughts but, really wasn't sure what it meant. But, over the weeks I've been thinking about it off and on. I've tried to think and put into words what I thought of it.
I think that what Benjamin Franklin is trying to say is that you can try and avoid your reality, put it off for a bit, and just wrap yourself up in your own world but time is still going to move forward. The real world around you is going to keep right on moving. Things may happen in life, maybe shake you up but that doesn't stop the grand picture of things. If you get too wrapped up in that little bubble you've created where nothing changes, nothing hurts you, then you could miss out on a lot. You can't live in the past. You have to live in the here and now. Time will keep ticking as long as God allows it, and refusing to keep up with it could result in precious moments wasted. Moments you'll never be able to get back. So you have to keep moving forward no matter what.
That's just my opinion on it.
What do you think of that quote?
He of course asked us what we thought it meant. At the time I had thoughts but, really wasn't sure what it meant. But, over the weeks I've been thinking about it off and on. I've tried to think and put into words what I thought of it.
I think that what Benjamin Franklin is trying to say is that you can try and avoid your reality, put it off for a bit, and just wrap yourself up in your own world but time is still going to move forward. The real world around you is going to keep right on moving. Things may happen in life, maybe shake you up but that doesn't stop the grand picture of things. If you get too wrapped up in that little bubble you've created where nothing changes, nothing hurts you, then you could miss out on a lot. You can't live in the past. You have to live in the here and now. Time will keep ticking as long as God allows it, and refusing to keep up with it could result in precious moments wasted. Moments you'll never be able to get back. So you have to keep moving forward no matter what.
That's just my opinion on it.
What do you think of that quote?
Friday, August 15, 2008
Fearless Heart
For even the most trusting soul
This world can be a scary place
So much that we can't control
In every moment that we face
When a thousand what ifs
Whisper in our ears
We remember who's we are
And watch them disappear
I wanna live with a fearless heart
Courage that's coming from trust in God
It's constantly guiding me though the road may seem dark
I wanna live, wanna live with a fearless heart
There are worries chasing everyone
It's evident in times like these
But I have found the confidence that comes
From time I spend on my knees
There's a truth I'm holding onto
As these days unfold
Greater is He, God is in you
And hear it in the world
I wanna live with a fearless heart
Courage that's coming from trust in God
It's constantly guiding me though the road may seem dark
I wanna live, wanna live with a fearless heart
He's my strength, He's my shelter
He is with me all the wayHe's my light and my salvation
Of whom shall I be afraid, of whom shall I be afraid?
I wanna live with a fearless heart
Courage that's coming from trust in God
It's constantly guiding me though the road may seem dark, yeah
I wanna live with a fearless heart
Courage that's coming from trust in God
It's constantly guiding me though the road is dark
I wanna live, wanna live with a fearless heart
With a fearless heart, with a fearless heart
With a fearless heart
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
JONAS BROTHERS CONCERT
Okay, so here is my LONG overdue post about the concert!!!
7/22/08
3:20 p.m. Leave the house, we run by the office really quick to say hi to mom then off the Shelby's house!
3:30: Arrive at Shelby's house. Pick her up.
3:35 We're off!!!!
On the Road: On the station Y98 they were at the Verizon Wireless Ampitheather and they interviewed the Jonas Brothers! And Demi Lovato! Shelby had to do our best to hold in our excitement. It was awesome! In the intervew we learned that, that morning the Jonas Brothers had done some sort of interview, the went down to field at Busch Stadium and hit some balls, and then went to Ted Drewes!! That's so cool!! Then we stopped at a Red Robin and grabbed some burgers to go. I didn't really get to enjoy mine because I was so nervous my stomach was in knots!!
6-ish: Arrive at the Ampitheater! It was so cool getting there knowing that the Jonas Brothers were in the same vicinity as you!! lol. After we went through the ticket gates we got in line for T-Shirts. Shelby and I each got matching ones, and they we each got ones for our sisters.
6:30-ish: We found our seats and sat nervously anticipating the amazing show to come!
7:00: Demi came out singing That's How You Know and rocked it!!! She did an awesome job! My favorite song of hers was Forget.
Close to 8: Avril Lavigne opened with Girlfriend. She also played many older songs such as Sk8er Boi, Complicated, My Happy Ending, I'm With You, then she also played When You're Gone and many many more.
9-ish: THE TIME WE HAD BEEN WAITING FOR. THE LIGHTS WENT OUT, SPOTLIGHTS FLASHED ALL OVER THE STAGE. THE BACKUP BAND CAME OUT. LIGHTS AND LASERS WERE FLASHING ALL OVER. THEN THE BAND GOES INTO THATS JUST THE WAY WE ROLL. THE JONAS BROTHERS POP UP OUT OF THE STAGE AND STEP ONTO THIS GIANT METAL ARM THING THAT CARRIES THEM UP AND AROUND, DOWN TO THE STAGE!! Then they sang many many of their songs! Their classic Year 3000, some from the recent album, and then quite a few from their album soon to be released!! (6 more days!)
During the song Goodnight & Goodbye Nick fell onto his back when he sang a part about being pushed around which then went into the bridge and from the ground he swung his legs over his head and Joe came and took his feet and flipped him over. Then Nick faced his back towards Joe and gave him his right foot and Joe flipped him forward. Then Nick did a cartwheel into a backflip down the runway thing on the stage. Then he bent down and Joe came and did a sweet flip over him!! During Hold On Joe went onto the runway and did an awesome air kick! Kevin also did this awesome spin while playing the guitar!! All of their new songs are amazing! They even did a cover of Shania Twain's Getcha Good!! It was incredible!! They sang their touching song A Little Bit Longer which Nick wrote about his diabetes. You can check it out here > (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SD3T4OK3R5Y) He gave an incredible speech along with it. Then during Hello Beautiful, part of the song goes, Hello Beautiful, hows it going, I hear its wonderful in California. Well they sang, Hello beautiful, hows it going, I hear its wonderful in Missouri. IT WAS AMAZING!!! Then when they sang tonight I'm gonna fly they each rose up off the stage on this little podium things!! IT WAS INCREDIBLE!!! During one of their songs they shot this water or foamy stuff into the crowd then Joe slid down the runway through it! During Gotta Find You from their DCOM Camp Rock, Joe picked a little girl up out of the crowd and had her help him sing it! It was adorable! Of course they did their newest hit, Burnin' Up and BIG ROB CAME OUT OF THE STAGE AND RAPPED!!! I LOVED IT!!! BIG ROB ROCKS!!! Then they all ran off the stage, then shortly they came back and sang When You Look Me in the Eyes and SOS!! KEVIN DID HIS SOS DANCE!!! IT WAS ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!!! Shelby and I left that show with a serious adrenaline rush!!! We were on a Jonas High!!
It was a good thing too because it took us almost an hour just to get out of the parking lot!!! We didn't get home until 2 a.m.! But it was so worth it!!! I definitely reccommend going to a Jonas concert!! My dad even enjoyed it!! They really do put on a fantastic show!!
7/22/08
3:20 p.m. Leave the house, we run by the office really quick to say hi to mom then off the Shelby's house!
3:30: Arrive at Shelby's house. Pick her up.
3:35 We're off!!!!
On the Road: On the station Y98 they were at the Verizon Wireless Ampitheather and they interviewed the Jonas Brothers! And Demi Lovato! Shelby had to do our best to hold in our excitement. It was awesome! In the intervew we learned that, that morning the Jonas Brothers had done some sort of interview, the went down to field at Busch Stadium and hit some balls, and then went to Ted Drewes!! That's so cool!! Then we stopped at a Red Robin and grabbed some burgers to go. I didn't really get to enjoy mine because I was so nervous my stomach was in knots!!
6-ish: Arrive at the Ampitheater! It was so cool getting there knowing that the Jonas Brothers were in the same vicinity as you!! lol. After we went through the ticket gates we got in line for T-Shirts. Shelby and I each got matching ones, and they we each got ones for our sisters.
6:30-ish: We found our seats and sat nervously anticipating the amazing show to come!
7:00: Demi came out singing That's How You Know and rocked it!!! She did an awesome job! My favorite song of hers was Forget.
Close to 8: Avril Lavigne opened with Girlfriend. She also played many older songs such as Sk8er Boi, Complicated, My Happy Ending, I'm With You, then she also played When You're Gone and many many more.
9-ish: THE TIME WE HAD BEEN WAITING FOR. THE LIGHTS WENT OUT, SPOTLIGHTS FLASHED ALL OVER THE STAGE. THE BACKUP BAND CAME OUT. LIGHTS AND LASERS WERE FLASHING ALL OVER. THEN THE BAND GOES INTO THATS JUST THE WAY WE ROLL. THE JONAS BROTHERS POP UP OUT OF THE STAGE AND STEP ONTO THIS GIANT METAL ARM THING THAT CARRIES THEM UP AND AROUND, DOWN TO THE STAGE!! Then they sang many many of their songs! Their classic Year 3000, some from the recent album, and then quite a few from their album soon to be released!! (6 more days!)
During the song Goodnight & Goodbye Nick fell onto his back when he sang a part about being pushed around which then went into the bridge and from the ground he swung his legs over his head and Joe came and took his feet and flipped him over. Then Nick faced his back towards Joe and gave him his right foot and Joe flipped him forward. Then Nick did a cartwheel into a backflip down the runway thing on the stage. Then he bent down and Joe came and did a sweet flip over him!! During Hold On Joe went onto the runway and did an awesome air kick! Kevin also did this awesome spin while playing the guitar!! All of their new songs are amazing! They even did a cover of Shania Twain's Getcha Good!! It was incredible!! They sang their touching song A Little Bit Longer which Nick wrote about his diabetes. You can check it out here > (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SD3T4OK3R5Y) He gave an incredible speech along with it. Then during Hello Beautiful, part of the song goes, Hello Beautiful, hows it going, I hear its wonderful in California. Well they sang, Hello beautiful, hows it going, I hear its wonderful in Missouri. IT WAS AMAZING!!! Then when they sang tonight I'm gonna fly they each rose up off the stage on this little podium things!! IT WAS INCREDIBLE!!! During one of their songs they shot this water or foamy stuff into the crowd then Joe slid down the runway through it! During Gotta Find You from their DCOM Camp Rock, Joe picked a little girl up out of the crowd and had her help him sing it! It was adorable! Of course they did their newest hit, Burnin' Up and BIG ROB CAME OUT OF THE STAGE AND RAPPED!!! I LOVED IT!!! BIG ROB ROCKS!!! Then they all ran off the stage, then shortly they came back and sang When You Look Me in the Eyes and SOS!! KEVIN DID HIS SOS DANCE!!! IT WAS ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!!! Shelby and I left that show with a serious adrenaline rush!!! We were on a Jonas High!!
It was a good thing too because it took us almost an hour just to get out of the parking lot!!! We didn't get home until 2 a.m.! But it was so worth it!!! I definitely reccommend going to a Jonas concert!! My dad even enjoyed it!! They really do put on a fantastic show!!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
This Puzzle called Life
I spent much of today working on a puzzle left on my dining room table. I managed to finish it a few hours ago. Now as I sit and think about it, its kind of like life. In life there are so many pieces. Every one unique. Many times as we go along, it feels as if though someone threw all the pieces on the floor and we're scrambling to find them all again. Then it feels like pieces are missing and we do anything and everything to find them. As we work our way through our life puzzle we may get sections of it done here and there. We can see bigger glimpses of the final puzzle but still not all of it. Sometimes the pieces can be very deceiving. You think they fit in one area of your life when they really fit in another. Sometimes you just need other pieces to make certain ones fit. Then, finally when the puzzle is finished you can see the big picture. You can see and understand how all those pieces worked. How they were important in achieving the final picture.
The great thing about the puzzle of our life? God is the one putting it together. Not us. God is putting every piece together in the way they were designed to be. He knows which piece fits where, which pieces don't and he already knows the bigger picture. When we try to take over and put the puzzle together ourselves, it doesn't come out right. But, when we finally just fully let go and just say, "God, You are in control. You know how my life is going to go and you know how to put the pieces together. I'm handing it all over to You." Then we have that peace knowing that God IS in control! He always is. The small sections of the puzzle may be rough, but with God, you'll get through them. Then one day we'll be able to look and see how perfectly God has placed the pieces. I'm so glad its not in my hands. I make enough mistakes in the small areas of life. So tonight, I'm letting go of the puzzle pieces in my hands, and I'm placing them in God's hands; fully trusting God to do, what only He can do.
The great thing about the puzzle of our life? God is the one putting it together. Not us. God is putting every piece together in the way they were designed to be. He knows which piece fits where, which pieces don't and he already knows the bigger picture. When we try to take over and put the puzzle together ourselves, it doesn't come out right. But, when we finally just fully let go and just say, "God, You are in control. You know how my life is going to go and you know how to put the pieces together. I'm handing it all over to You." Then we have that peace knowing that God IS in control! He always is. The small sections of the puzzle may be rough, but with God, you'll get through them. Then one day we'll be able to look and see how perfectly God has placed the pieces. I'm so glad its not in my hands. I make enough mistakes in the small areas of life. So tonight, I'm letting go of the puzzle pieces in my hands, and I'm placing them in God's hands; fully trusting God to do, what only He can do.
Monday, July 21, 2008
I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh my goodness!!! I get to go to a Jonas Brothers concert tomorrow!!!!!!!! I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH MOM AND DAD!!!! If you couldn't tell, I'M SUPER EXCITED!!!!!!!!!! I'll be sure to write all about it afterwards!!! Goodness gracious I am so excited!!!!! Demi Lovato is going to be there too!!!! Well, Avril Lavigne will be too but I'm not quite as excited about that. But, it's still going to ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, be on the look out for the post afterwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Bloggergirl24
So, be on the look out for the post afterwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Bloggergirl24
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Our Trip!
Alright, so now that I'm back from my week away I guess its time to fill all of your wonderful bloggers in!!
DAY 1: Driving Day
Day 1 was definitely not the most fun day of the trip. We picked my mom up after last service and hit the road!! It was a pretty long trip but we made it!! We managed to arrive at about 10:30 est. time. Our cabin was way up there over hills and through winding roads. And it was dark. We made a few wrong turns. It was interesting.
DAY 2: Get settled, Check everything out.
We all slept in on Day 2 after our late night. Then we headed over to the Old Mill for an early lunch. We got a window seat on the upper level. It was an amazing view!! We could see the water, ducks, and pigeons were flying right outside the window!! I had the grilled chicken on a bed of rice with mashed potatoes and green beans. Very good. Plus the corn chowder and corn fritters you get with your meal. Next we visited the General store next door. Then we went to Ripley's Old MacDonald's Farm mini-golf with my grandparents. That was a lot of fun! Its interactive and has talking sheep, horses, cows, rats, and pigs!! Even flying pigs!!! For dinner we ate at Johnny Carrino's. DELICIOUS!!! Then we hit the Marble Slab creamery (or slabbery as my uncle calls it.) and then headed back to the cabin for the night.
DAY 3: Dollywood
On day 3 we went to Dollywood! So much fun! Although, I must say watching my uncle and cousin ride some of the big roller coasters was almost more fun than actually riding! I did ride the train and River Battle. You should have seen how soaked we were! It looked like we took a shower!! (Pictures will probably follow soon!!) After Dollywood we grabbed some sandwiches from McAllister's deli and headed back to the cabin to get cleaned up.
DAY 4: Shopping
Day 4 consisted of lots of shopping. We visited Old Navy (where I got lots of clothes =D ) and some other stores my mom wanted to go to. We also played another round of mini-golf with my grandparents! We ate at the Bullfish for dinner. It was VERY VERY VERY good!!!
DAY 5: Cade's Cove/Gaitlinburg
On day 5 we were up early and headed over to Cade's cove. It was really pretty. We saw tons of deer and a few babies too. And a couple of turkeys. The highlight of the Cade's Cove trip though, was when we were driving along when suddenly a huge buck jumped out of the trees, right into the road, right in front of us!!! It was really cool!! The buck just walked in front of us over the large field on the other side! (Again, pictures to come soon) Then we went to Gaitlinburg and ate at Bubba Gumps. It was OK. Then we walked up and down the streets of Gaitlinburg. My sister and dad went to the aquarium and my mom and I went to Ripley's Believe it or Not museum. It was very interesting. We ate at the Applewood Farmhouse with my grandparents.
DAY 6: NASCAR!!!
This was our last day so we tried to pack in everything left we wanted to do. We also went the NASCAR speedpark with my uncle and cousin. Sadly, he beat me. All 3 races. haha. He's quite the racer!! That night we ate our last meal on vacation at the Bullfish with my grandparents and Aunt, Uncle and two cousins. Then we went into one of those tacky souvenir shops and my sister and I got air brushed shirts. Then back to the cabin to pack.
DAY 7: Parting is such sweet sorrow
On Day 7 we ate a good breakfast at IHOP then hit the road! So this day was also a lot of driving. When we hit Kentucky though it got scary. Storm clouds rolled in and it looked like it was going to tornado. I was very scared. But, God got us through it and we made it home!
Our cabin was very nice to. Many, many pool games, air hockey games, and Guitar Hero battles took place in the basement!
Alright, I'm sorry for the monstrous post! But, when you're gone for 7 days, a lot of things happen!!
So, that's all from me for now! I'll try to have pictures up as soon as I can!!!
~~BLOG ON!!!~~
DAY 1: Driving Day
Day 1 was definitely not the most fun day of the trip. We picked my mom up after last service and hit the road!! It was a pretty long trip but we made it!! We managed to arrive at about 10:30 est. time. Our cabin was way up there over hills and through winding roads. And it was dark. We made a few wrong turns. It was interesting.
DAY 2: Get settled, Check everything out.
We all slept in on Day 2 after our late night. Then we headed over to the Old Mill for an early lunch. We got a window seat on the upper level. It was an amazing view!! We could see the water, ducks, and pigeons were flying right outside the window!! I had the grilled chicken on a bed of rice with mashed potatoes and green beans. Very good. Plus the corn chowder and corn fritters you get with your meal. Next we visited the General store next door. Then we went to Ripley's Old MacDonald's Farm mini-golf with my grandparents. That was a lot of fun! Its interactive and has talking sheep, horses, cows, rats, and pigs!! Even flying pigs!!! For dinner we ate at Johnny Carrino's. DELICIOUS!!! Then we hit the Marble Slab creamery (or slabbery as my uncle calls it.) and then headed back to the cabin for the night.
DAY 3: Dollywood
On day 3 we went to Dollywood! So much fun! Although, I must say watching my uncle and cousin ride some of the big roller coasters was almost more fun than actually riding! I did ride the train and River Battle. You should have seen how soaked we were! It looked like we took a shower!! (Pictures will probably follow soon!!) After Dollywood we grabbed some sandwiches from McAllister's deli and headed back to the cabin to get cleaned up.
DAY 4: Shopping
Day 4 consisted of lots of shopping. We visited Old Navy (where I got lots of clothes =D ) and some other stores my mom wanted to go to. We also played another round of mini-golf with my grandparents! We ate at the Bullfish for dinner. It was VERY VERY VERY good!!!
DAY 5: Cade's Cove/Gaitlinburg
On day 5 we were up early and headed over to Cade's cove. It was really pretty. We saw tons of deer and a few babies too. And a couple of turkeys. The highlight of the Cade's Cove trip though, was when we were driving along when suddenly a huge buck jumped out of the trees, right into the road, right in front of us!!! It was really cool!! The buck just walked in front of us over the large field on the other side! (Again, pictures to come soon) Then we went to Gaitlinburg and ate at Bubba Gumps. It was OK. Then we walked up and down the streets of Gaitlinburg. My sister and dad went to the aquarium and my mom and I went to Ripley's Believe it or Not museum. It was very interesting. We ate at the Applewood Farmhouse with my grandparents.
DAY 6: NASCAR!!!
This was our last day so we tried to pack in everything left we wanted to do. We also went the NASCAR speedpark with my uncle and cousin. Sadly, he beat me. All 3 races. haha. He's quite the racer!! That night we ate our last meal on vacation at the Bullfish with my grandparents and Aunt, Uncle and two cousins. Then we went into one of those tacky souvenir shops and my sister and I got air brushed shirts. Then back to the cabin to pack.
DAY 7: Parting is such sweet sorrow
On Day 7 we ate a good breakfast at IHOP then hit the road! So this day was also a lot of driving. When we hit Kentucky though it got scary. Storm clouds rolled in and it looked like it was going to tornado. I was very scared. But, God got us through it and we made it home!
Our cabin was very nice to. Many, many pool games, air hockey games, and Guitar Hero battles took place in the basement!
Alright, I'm sorry for the monstrous post! But, when you're gone for 7 days, a lot of things happen!!
So, that's all from me for now! I'll try to have pictures up as soon as I can!!!
~~BLOG ON!!!~~
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
I was Asleep
This blog is sort of in a way a reply to my last blog, "Open up my Eyes". This evening was another amazing service at M.H. As my uncle Greg got up and began giving the challenge at the end his words hit me and I was like, "Hello!" They made me think back to my previous blog and I realized an awful thought. My eyes weren't just shut, it was far worse: I was asleep. That's scary. I don't want to live my life asleep to all the good things God has for me and the plans He has for me. I'm awake now. My alarm is blaring, 5:14...5:14...5:14. I'm done sleeping and just dreaming, I'm ready to be awake and alert and living out the great plans God has for me. Forget living life on the sidelines not fully aware of my surroundings. It's time to get into the game.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Open Up My Eyes
Have you ever had one of those, 'Duh!' moments? I know I sure have! The past couple of days haven't been much different either. I mean, I get so caught up in the bad stuff in life I completely miss the good. I'm too absorbed in that car crash on the news, that bad grade, that injury, illness, and the list goes on and on. When, in reality, most of those bad things don't matter much. Of course there are bigger things that happen that do really make you feel bad. But a lot of the time there small things that really aren't worth your worry. I know how bad I get about that. Fortunately, I have recently had the privilege to sit and talk with a good friend and it really opened my eyes. It made me really stop and think about my life and how it's so much better than I think. I realized just how many blessings God has placed in my life. I mean, so many great friends from church, so many fun evenings I've gotten to spend with my family and at the ball games. I'm in good health, I have a roof over my head, clothes to wear, food to eat, friends and family, what else could I need? All the rest of the stuff I think I need is most likely want not necessity. I'll have to learn that lesson in time...(I'm working on it!) So, what I'm really trying to say here, is OPEN YOUR EYES! Don't miss out on all the good stuff God has placed in your life and all of the good stuff He's doing in your life! When you open your eyes to all those blessings it will blow your mind! I know it blew mine!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I'm At it Again!
Okay...So I'm at it again! Writing another story! So, of course, I'm going to post it for you all. This one is another lyric-infused story. This song is A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton! So, enjoy! Let me know what you think!
A Thousand Miles
Makin’ my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I’m home bound
Lacey couldn’t see. Her vision was blurred with tears. Her nose ran uncontrollably. The icy December air bit at every inch of exposed skin. Her tears felt like ice frozen on her face. Her fingers were numb, her lips blue. She was probably quite a sight to the others she passed on her way through town but she could care less. They had their own problems and she had hers. She could only focus on her own at that moment. Hate and anger consumed her body into a rage. She flung herself against a building then fell into a heap on the ground. Her body convulsed with her steady sobs. Then as quickly as the anger filled her, it left her. Now she was left scared and upset. She picked herself up and continued on her way.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
She reached the thick part of town. People were jammed onto every possible spot on the sidewalks. Lacey pushed her way through, not excusing her self in doing so. She forged through one way, and then shoved her way through the other. She received many glares and some choice words but she didn’t take notice to any of them. She kept her focus ahead. She was just determined to get home.
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder…
She reached the outskirts of the city and slowed her pace. She thought back to just hours earlier. She sat through a funeral service, her family members surrounding her. Not a dry face could be found. People she didn’t even know had shown up to give her their condolences. She had slightly smiled to acknowledge their kindness then looked away. She was in no mood for small talk with strangers. As soon as it was over she grabbed her coat and scarf and left. She called to her family that she would meet them at the house. None of them argued with her to stay. Smart family.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time,
Would pass us by?
She found a park bench and sat on it. How could this have happened? How could have her mother just died like that? It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that she had to lose her mother, her best friend, at just 15 years of age. Who would she go to when she needed to talk? Had a guy problem? Or just simply needed some one-on-one girl talk. Her dad? As much as she loved him, conversations about some things just wouldn’t be the same, and slightly awkward. Her best friends? Of course she had them but the bond between them just wasn’t the same as the bond between her and her mother. She loved all of her family and friends dearly but nothing was going to be the same ever again. She just wished she could simply sit there forever and forget the world. Forget time. Forget every pain and heartache she had ever gone through. Life just seemed so unfair.
I’d walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight.
As strong as her desire to sit and forget the world was, just as strong was her desire to run. Run so hard it felt like her lungs would burst. Running like that would help take some of the pain away. Get her mind off things. But she had nowhere to run. She lived in a city. She almost decided on running in circles. Anything was better than nothing at that point. She would have run forever if it would bring her mother back. Or at least brought her close. Close enough to reach out and touch her, to hug her last one time, to actually say goodbye. It was the simplest thing that would do so much for her at that moment. The one thing she had been deprived of.
It’s always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me
It had been six long months since her mother’s death. The pain was finally beginning to fade. All the same, it was still there. It was warm June afternoon and Lacey was walking around the park. The same one she had come to the night of her mother’s funeral. It had become her “spot”. It was her place of refuge, where she felt safe and protected. She would just sit and breathe. Something she needed desperately to do to stay sane. It made her feel refreshed and more alive then before she had come. She always left wondering though, if somehow, somewhere, her mother was still watching her.
‘Cause everything’s so wrong
And I don’t belong
Living in your precious memories
The moving on part during those six months was hard for Lacey. It was near impossible. Cooking Christmas dinner without her mother just didn’t feel right; the gingerbread men lost their taste, the ham was too dry. Christmas morning held no joy, no excitement. They had always been a Christian family but after their mother’s death, they had all forgotten the real reason for the season. Lacey woke up Christmas morning impassive and barely there. By mid March life had begun to return to normal. Then by June it was as if her mother never existed. That thought killed Lacey inside. She kept quiet though. She didn’t want to bring back that black cloud that had hung over them for so long.
It’s always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder if you ever think of me
Lacey had returned back to the park one late July evening. Happy, precious memories of her mother floated through her mind. She sat on her usual bench, although there was another woman on the opposite end. Lacey minded her own business, and the lady did the same. Lindsay sighed as a gentle, steady rain began to fall from the gray skies. The lady got up and headed for shelter. She offered Lacey her umbrella since she was returning inside. Lacey politely declined and the woman left. Lacey noticed a small folded piece of paper on the side of the bench that the lady had recently occupied. She reached over and grabbed it before it received more rain damage. She turned to call after the lady but she was already gone. Lacey carefully opened it up. A bible verse was scrawled across it. “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:10
Lacey smiled. So she was being watched. Not by her mother but by God. He cared about her no matter what. He was there for her no matter what. He had been with her the entire time. Why hadn’t she realized that before? She pushed the thought aside. It didn’t matter that she hadn’t thought of it before, it mattered that she realized it now. She got up from the bench with an added spring her step. The rain had stopped and the clouds were parting. Lacey began her journey back home. The journey that once seemed like a thousand miles. Now, it was like nothing. She moved quickly as she had some very important things she needed to remind her family. This time instead of that black cloud though, she was bringing the sun.
A Thousand Miles
Makin’ my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I’m home bound
Lacey couldn’t see. Her vision was blurred with tears. Her nose ran uncontrollably. The icy December air bit at every inch of exposed skin. Her tears felt like ice frozen on her face. Her fingers were numb, her lips blue. She was probably quite a sight to the others she passed on her way through town but she could care less. They had their own problems and she had hers. She could only focus on her own at that moment. Hate and anger consumed her body into a rage. She flung herself against a building then fell into a heap on the ground. Her body convulsed with her steady sobs. Then as quickly as the anger filled her, it left her. Now she was left scared and upset. She picked herself up and continued on her way.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
She reached the thick part of town. People were jammed onto every possible spot on the sidewalks. Lacey pushed her way through, not excusing her self in doing so. She forged through one way, and then shoved her way through the other. She received many glares and some choice words but she didn’t take notice to any of them. She kept her focus ahead. She was just determined to get home.
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder…
She reached the outskirts of the city and slowed her pace. She thought back to just hours earlier. She sat through a funeral service, her family members surrounding her. Not a dry face could be found. People she didn’t even know had shown up to give her their condolences. She had slightly smiled to acknowledge their kindness then looked away. She was in no mood for small talk with strangers. As soon as it was over she grabbed her coat and scarf and left. She called to her family that she would meet them at the house. None of them argued with her to stay. Smart family.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time,
Would pass us by?
She found a park bench and sat on it. How could this have happened? How could have her mother just died like that? It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that she had to lose her mother, her best friend, at just 15 years of age. Who would she go to when she needed to talk? Had a guy problem? Or just simply needed some one-on-one girl talk. Her dad? As much as she loved him, conversations about some things just wouldn’t be the same, and slightly awkward. Her best friends? Of course she had them but the bond between them just wasn’t the same as the bond between her and her mother. She loved all of her family and friends dearly but nothing was going to be the same ever again. She just wished she could simply sit there forever and forget the world. Forget time. Forget every pain and heartache she had ever gone through. Life just seemed so unfair.
I’d walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight.
As strong as her desire to sit and forget the world was, just as strong was her desire to run. Run so hard it felt like her lungs would burst. Running like that would help take some of the pain away. Get her mind off things. But she had nowhere to run. She lived in a city. She almost decided on running in circles. Anything was better than nothing at that point. She would have run forever if it would bring her mother back. Or at least brought her close. Close enough to reach out and touch her, to hug her last one time, to actually say goodbye. It was the simplest thing that would do so much for her at that moment. The one thing she had been deprived of.
It’s always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me
It had been six long months since her mother’s death. The pain was finally beginning to fade. All the same, it was still there. It was warm June afternoon and Lacey was walking around the park. The same one she had come to the night of her mother’s funeral. It had become her “spot”. It was her place of refuge, where she felt safe and protected. She would just sit and breathe. Something she needed desperately to do to stay sane. It made her feel refreshed and more alive then before she had come. She always left wondering though, if somehow, somewhere, her mother was still watching her.
‘Cause everything’s so wrong
And I don’t belong
Living in your precious memories
The moving on part during those six months was hard for Lacey. It was near impossible. Cooking Christmas dinner without her mother just didn’t feel right; the gingerbread men lost their taste, the ham was too dry. Christmas morning held no joy, no excitement. They had always been a Christian family but after their mother’s death, they had all forgotten the real reason for the season. Lacey woke up Christmas morning impassive and barely there. By mid March life had begun to return to normal. Then by June it was as if her mother never existed. That thought killed Lacey inside. She kept quiet though. She didn’t want to bring back that black cloud that had hung over them for so long.
It’s always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder if you ever think of me
Lacey had returned back to the park one late July evening. Happy, precious memories of her mother floated through her mind. She sat on her usual bench, although there was another woman on the opposite end. Lacey minded her own business, and the lady did the same. Lindsay sighed as a gentle, steady rain began to fall from the gray skies. The lady got up and headed for shelter. She offered Lacey her umbrella since she was returning inside. Lacey politely declined and the woman left. Lacey noticed a small folded piece of paper on the side of the bench that the lady had recently occupied. She reached over and grabbed it before it received more rain damage. She turned to call after the lady but she was already gone. Lacey carefully opened it up. A bible verse was scrawled across it. “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:10
Lacey smiled. So she was being watched. Not by her mother but by God. He cared about her no matter what. He was there for her no matter what. He had been with her the entire time. Why hadn’t she realized that before? She pushed the thought aside. It didn’t matter that she hadn’t thought of it before, it mattered that she realized it now. She got up from the bench with an added spring her step. The rain had stopped and the clouds were parting. Lacey began her journey back home. The journey that once seemed like a thousand miles. Now, it was like nothing. She moved quickly as she had some very important things she needed to remind her family. This time instead of that black cloud though, she was bringing the sun.
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